23.03.2010 - Promoted MY ASS

Seriously I don't know what I am suppose to do and what I wish to have. Having well paid is really nice and enjoyable but taking up the responsibility is really a pain in the ass. I am working regularly and keeping up with something new everyday. Although the work load seems to be bearable still, I wish to have greater challenge than what I have now. But what I want was again conflict to something that I did not wish to have; to be transferred to HQ. I just don't know why I love staying at where I am staying now. I just don't like shifting and getting to a new place, adopting the new culture and trapped in the congested town. It is true that to have a greater challenge and opportunity, I need to be transferred to the main office but looking into what I like and dislike I am so sure that I rather hold what I have in the past than getting a new role in my company. I love to stay and be the way I am currently than changing it to a new environment. Mom was second factor as she is difficult to get adopted to new place and she is pretty well attached to some hospital that needs regular check up from time to time. I am so speechless sometimes when my big boss calls me and ask me when am I going to go shift over. He even threaten to find someone to replace me in HQ if I refuse to do so. Hate working in this company. 12 years really too long to get my ass out from there. Hope new life gets in soonest possible

22.03.2010 - Great Petua

I was given a 'petua' of getting a life partner. Although it sound ridiculous at the beginning, I still try to get it done hoping to find the other part of 'me' to complete cycle of life. So now, after a week, the 'petua' seems to work. I started to realised there are many girls around me while some are just started to prevail. Friends are started to pay more attention on my problems and begin to introduce girls to me. Not counting those existing, I guess I am really pack with those 'choosing' things. Who don't want to choose for the best? But seems like I am the one reluctant to be approached and sometimes feels lazy to go out for dates or meet up those match making from friends. I just don't like the match making concept. Well, I was a bit surprise especially when mom work out something with my neighbor. Yes they are searching 1 for me. I was given twice someones hand phone number but I ignore it at the beginning stage. But again was nagged by mom and neighbor, end up I started to drop her a message. Well, I don't really like all those match making things, but considering of mom's hard work, I don't mind trying just to make friends. So my first message was replied and follow by few more after that. We keep exchanging SMS for days and finally we talked on the phone. Everything seems smooth going. Well, I think worth to make friend since she is somewhere near to my house. But age was again my main concern. She is younger than me 7 years and seems to be a little bit childish than I expected. So, after sometimes getting to know each other thru phone and SMS, finally I call for a meet up but was turned down couple of times. Well, to me it is not really compulsory but just wish to know who I am talking to for sometimes. I patiently waited for couple of days and finally she offered to meet up. We have our first date out yesterday at Old Town in Kulim. She is a very nice little girl, pretty good looking, presentable but very good in talking. Hmm... well it is just a meet up and I can't really judge someone by first look. I will keep going further to learn and know more about her just to make sure she is the one I am looking for. No harm trying if there is opportunity rather than keep waiting for something that might not happen. e.g. long distance relationship. Really look forward to meet up with her again.

12.03.2010 - Trip to Johor

I was asked to fly down to Johor for some 5 to 7 slides presentation. I was so frustrated and wondering what is this all about? I thought it was a tough one but going through it, I can see it is just a basic presentation which I cannot understand why can't they do it themselves rather than flying me off from Penang to Johor for this minor task. Seriously I think this is a waste of money! Everyone of us in Penang was having tough time cutting cost and reducing our expenses but the sales teams was spending like no body business. Speechless.

So as regular again I was having my tough time a day before. Knowing there is a tough task on that day, I forced myself to attend it along with my staff just to ensure everything is in running order but somehow my client was impressed with my work instead of my staff and forces me to stay for the whole session. Well, I don't really like this kind of stuffs as my purpose to be there is just to make sure everything is in order, so why should I trouble myself to do the work while my staff is doing nothing. As part of the process in that particular industries, frozen products, there are moments where I need to enter a cold room at the temperature -20C. It may cause instant freeze to some of our sensitive part of our body like fingers, ears, etc.. My staff went in for almost 5 minutes and came out with his face pale and shivering. I remain inside the cold store for another 10 to 15 minutes to tally all the goods and then selecting some for testing purpose. By the time I am out, I am almost numb on all my fingers and begin to feel hair are frozen and hard. Be honest, I love that temperature and wish my room is half of that room temperature. I hate hot weather because it makes me sick, tired, thirsty, dizzy, sleepy, sweating, etc.. I just worry that with the instant change of temperature in my body will probably causing me fall ill. Imagine I am in the cold room and then out from the factory under hot sun and then back to my office air-condition, taking my shower and then in my car hot again heading to airport to catch my flight at 4pm. Honestly I am very very tired and worry so much that I will fall sick by the time I reach Johor. Thank GOD everything went well and I am now back home feeling good but tired and sleepy.

08.03.2010 - Revisit to my School

It has been years (15 yrs) I left my secondary school. I just don't know why I miss my school to much yesterday. It makes me feel going back again to look at the school and feel the moment when I was a teenage, young, energetic and blunt! I miss the fried koay teow so much and the memories I have years back. I took the initiative today by dropping by my school to have the delicious koay teow, a glass of orange, a bowl of hokkien mee and a bowl of curry me. And believe me it taste as before but price slightly increased, but of course it is still the cheapest you'll ever find. Miss my school so much!

01.03.2010 - MIA

It has been a very long time since I leave some messages and talks about me. Ihave being busy lately with work and house cleaning stuffs. I am a bit lazy lately especially looking at blogs and checking emails. Too many things in my mind and was trying so hard to figure it out. Sometimes really hate myself for being so complicated. I'd tried to have simple live but it is hard to do it than saying it. Sometimes I asked myself why I am here in this world for. The daily routine really makes me feels bored, time wasting and meaningless....