25.12.2009 - 2nd day in Singapore

I love this year Christmas. Mom was so glad because everyone is around her during her birthday. What I like most is our Family Christmas Party. We woke up as usual around 8 plus having simple breakfast. By noon, we were brought to 1 nice seafood restaurant having curry fish head, deep fried egg plant, fried beef with milky sauce and spinach fried with century egg and salty egg. The curry fish head was fantastic! Everyone keep saying that Malaysian food is always the best but to me, Singapore food is much better compared to Malaysian dishes. Their price is way much worth paying and also cheaper compared to Malaysia. Lunch was over and dinner is in the talk. Everything was well planned by my sister and BIL; we just need to wait, listen and follow the flow while they run the shows. Sister was preparing her nice brownies, pasta and other side dishes for our dinner. BIL was busy with his Caesar salad while mom and me are waiting for the right time to eat. Roasted turkey was also served but it is not prepared, neither sister nor BIL. It was ordered and heated before it was served. Pretty cool huh? It was my greatest meal of the year. Although I knew that our presence in their house really a mess to their house and causes them being busy for the past few days, but it is worth for every hard work they have went thru as all of us are so happy to be together and enjoying the food prepared. I love it so much and was in the plan to try the salad and brownies this end of the week. Hopefully it goes well. It is nice to have family gathering eating together and talk about anything we like without boundaries. Everyone was busy out there celebrating Christmas but to us, we much prefer to have everything in the house and spend more time together. With all the heavy meal I have for the day, I have no other choice except running/jogging around my sister's apartment and climbing 18 floors staircase to burn all my fat. Hmm..... Seriously I really don't want to go there again after knowing we are troubling them everything. I knew that they will have to spend alot of times planning for things and have to do the house cleniang when we re back home.

Curry fish head

Deep fried egg plant

Spinach with EGGS

Dinner - turkey
Caesar Salad

Home cook dinner

Pasta

Giant sausage

Turkey half finsihed

Sister's best brownies

24.12.2009 - 1st Day in SINGAPORE

Despite having lack of sleep, I was forced to wake up early in the morning that day to gear up to catch my flight at 940am. I was hoping that my stomach is okay but unfortunately nothing has change. The pain was there and I feel uneasy at all after I got up from my bed. I have no other choice but to get ready to airport. Going to the airport is really a headache to me too. I was in the plan to drive my car there and parked at the open parking area in the airport but think twice, it is going to cost me alot and looking into security perspective, I won't not dare to park there for 3 consecutive days without being monitored under CCTV, security guards or under shade. I was cracking my head a day before figuring out who should I call for help and the only person I have in mind is my closest female friend Ng. After considering several aspects which I cannot reveal it here, I rather spend money on the cab than calling for her help. She fly-kite during my god-sister's trip and even throw her tantrum on me without any ground. I really wonder until now what the hell she has in mind that makes her did that. Avoiding herself from spending money or just showing her colors to everyone? well this is not her first time! So, I decided to called up another colleague of mine to pick me up. I am so sleepy and feeling unwell but nothing much I can do except following the flow. So I touched down in Singapore after an hour flight and found out the damn long queue at the immigration stations. There are about 10 lanes but none of it cleared. I was on the Q for almost half and hour suffering from stomach pain and feeling hungry. I really start cursing the damn slow service but there is nothing much I can do except be patient and wait. Look at the Q. The greatest moment is when I see my sister and mother at the arrival gate waiting for me. Although the pain are still there, I feel warm with their presence. They rush me some snacks and water and took me for a nice steamboat. I was reluctant to join them because with the pain I have I usually particular on my food. I rather choose something light and soft than something hot, spicy and hard. Seriously I didn't even know if steamboat suit my condition but I don't mind trying since I already there. Furthermore I have my medicine if something goes wrong. Nevertheless, it was my great lunch after all; serving special dishes that I cannot find it in Malaysia. You might want to take a look at the picture I posted. Right after our lunch we were planned to watch movie but due to the crowd, we decided to go back and rest. Damn tired that day. Gosh... I am too much left behind.. I can't really recall where we have our dinner on that day.. ermm.. I am getting old and memories are weaker now. Oh ya... my BIL cook us teow chew porridge... wuahahaha... unbelievable....delicious meal of the day. Porridge with chicken drum stick, pork rib, mushrooms, etc. Damn nice!

23.12.2009 - Crazy Thoughts

I have lot of works to be done for this month and I am due for my holiday trip to Singapore to meet up my mom, sister and BIL. With my uncomfortable stomach condition, I was hoping that the trip can be postponed or cancelled. My holiday mood was totally out as there are too many things on my desk and feeling unwell. I have being on congee for the past few days hoping to get well soonest possible but to no avail. The medicine I took is not that helpful at all, probably it needs time to heal than I expected instantly. The day has come and if I would to turn down my family, I think I will probably get scolded by everyone and of course the pre-booked air ticket fare of MYR600 is really a waste. There is nothing much I can do now except packing all my stuffs and sleep early to get more rest for the next day trip. How good if I can change my damn stomach to pig's stomach.

22.12.2009 - Mayday Mayday

It is my bad trip after all. Usually I do enjoy my trip with my fellow colleague but this time, I did not enjoy it at all. First, it is my TV day since mom is not around at home; Second; I was damn tired; Third; I was attacked AGAIN by my old friend - Gastric. The inflammation was serious until the extend of having fever during my stay in KL. Looking into cost saving and also with our hope to get back home as early as we can, the 3 of us decided to drive back on the same day 21.12.2009. It was horrible. 2 of the passenger knock off while the other driver was struggling to get us home safely. He took almost 5 cups of coffee to stay awake while the other 2 was totally dreaming even though the driver plays his KAVADI song loud and clear. We finally reach home around 1.30am and I only manage to sleep around 230am after unpacking my stuffs and having some snacks to keep my stomach filled. The pain was there but with the tiredness I have, I just fall to sleep without realising it. It is 1030am and somehow I feel heavy enough to wake up. Everything was so bad that time that I can feel I am on fever and my stomach is damn burning. I was in the plan to have my MC but after receiving plenty calls from client and office, I decided to go to office and settle it. I wish to have more days to rest and more time to do my own things. Damn boring.

21.12.2009 - Sick MAN

It is a horrible day! Nothing happen during my trip down on Sunday to KL with my fellow colleagues. It was a sudden while I was on deep sleep that night around 3.30am, my gastric attacked me along with fever. I was so angry and being cursing myself why I have being torturing myself for the past few days. Lack of sleep, too much stress and occasionally delayed my meals during dinner and lunch. As I travel along with my medicine, I took 1 of the strong gastric pill immediately hoping the pain will go away and I can continue my sleep so that I will have enough rest for next day task. Unfortunately it does not help and I have to take the pain until 6.30am where I was called for breakfast with my friends. There is nothing much I can eat except toasted bread and some cereal with milk. I told myself, whether I am sick or not, I still have to complete my work asap and get back home to have good rest. Unfortunately I was unlucky. My pain and fever is not doing better at all which forces me to request my client to send me to nearest clinic for help. I was given an injection and was told to have a rest rather than working but I have no other choice except finishing my work soonest I can. I finished my day work around 7pm and headed back to Penang. We reached Penang around 2am and after cleaning and unpacking, I only managed to sleep around 2.30am. My pain was still there but slightly improve whenever I have my medicine and meals. What I wish is to sleep well and get more rest because I need to travel to Singapore on eve of Christmas to meet up my sis n mom. I just don't want to have the pain while I am there otherwise I will not be able to enjoy all the great food my sister planned for me.

18.12.2009 - 3 Cute Little Baby

Ah.... what a wonderful day. My lovely god sister is here along with 2 little good looking girl enjoying their weekend at Penang. They travelled on Friday morning and reached around 1pm. They planned to pull over for 2 days in my house. Although it is a very short trips but we enjoy the whole planned especially having the talk in the house and tasting foods around Penang. They are so cute and funny. My whole house was full of happiness and laughs when they are around. Although sometimes I don't know what they are talking about, their laughs always makes me cheerful and happy. Indded they are lovely girls. Look at those pictures I've taken. Some were taken at the Sungai Kob Fish Village, Toys Museum, Gurney Drives and Mengkuang dam. Honestly I am very tried that day because after all the tiredness I have during the month of December which is our peak season. I have being working more than 12 hours everyday to get my job done. Thank you so much to these 3 wonderful girls that really makes me feel good. We chat until 2am and yet these 3 cuties are still fresh and awake. I collapsed! Too old to be available at late evening nowadays. I fall sick then when they return to KL. I was on the same trip to KL the same day they return to KL to cover up some task in Subang. I felt sick on that day during my trip due to lack of sleep and imbalance food since 2 weeks ago. Wondering how to get more stronger!

16.12.2009 - Cold Hearted 'S'Hole

I was on this program for almost 6 years and through out these years, I have being laughing and look down on the firm I am employed at because we are violating some elements that we used to evaluate our clients and suppliers. Every time I complains and mumbling to myself most of my staff thought that I was over stressed. Now, they become part of me after learning what I am doing and struggling every moment I been through all these years. How could we evaluate our client/supplier compliance towards sets of international elements despite knowing we are breaching it? Discrimination, Harsh, Excessive working hours, Force labor, etc. None was applied! We have no grievance procedure to address our dissatisfaction and worst of all we are being forced to do something we cannot do. We are not allowed to voice out our concern. If we did that is call retaliate to them. If we say we don't know how to do it because we have yet being trained, we are accused of not initiatives. If we can't do it because we are tight up with other works, they assume we reluctant to work. If we go back early, they say we are not working. When we are busy working and short of man power, they says we are hired to handle it. If we did mistakes, they find ways to terminates you or humiliate you. If they did mistakes, it is common and not really a big deal. If the mistakes they did is big, they find scapegoat to cover up everything. If we do it wrong, we are wrong! If they or their loves once is doing it wrongly, they stay silence and forget things. When you say you short of man power, they say you are not good in scheduling your working table. Worst of all, if he / she is in bad mood, everything we do is wrong! If you are lucky enough to be selected as his / her favorite, then your life will be as easy. Whatever you do is correct, initiatives, proactive, good, etc. If you are not his / her favorites, whatever you do is wrong. There is when you see emails and calls flies in with lots of words that is unbearable. I am sick with all this! How could there be a person like that in this world. God have given His best to create a creature call human to live and enjoy lives. But how could these people claimed themselves as good person but in actual they do wonders to make others people miserable and suffering? Hey what did you get at the end of the day? I wish someone come in and evaluate our level of compliance like how we evaluate others. I bet plenty non-comformances will be discovered!

11.12.2009 - What I want?

It is not nice at all being loved by someone that you have no feeling with. I was trying to search for the right one but till then I would love to enjoy fullest as a single man. Although I do feel lonely sometimes especially seeing bunch of couples in the cinema, food court, restaurant, hotel, etc., but I feel being lucky to be single to do what I wanted to do and date anyone that I like without concerning if my partner would like it or not. But at the end of day I am still single and lonely while those attached, enjoying the companion they have. I called up one of my good friend in Ipoh and spoken to him for almost an hour. He always reminds me that I am no longer a young person and should have consider having a companion and family. I gave him the usual excuse that I cannot find one and he slap me back saying I am 'too choosy'. Know what? I guess he is right. But what is so wrong to be choosy for what type of woman I want rather than simply get 1 that I have no feel with right?

Talking about partners, I really don't know how to handle my own situation. I was gifted to be loved by someone that I have no feel with. I am trying so hard to accept them despite knowing they are not suits me and still on going to figure out if I should be the one to change to match them? Should I just forget about what I want and what I am looking for? Or should I just learn to accept people? I wanted to push them away but thinking of being rejected is kind of painful moment it makes me more difficult to decide. And what come across my mind is, if I rejected them, will I have the second chance? Or it is just me that not used to be attached after years being alone? Or it is true that you never maryr the one you really love? I guess I have too many questions to myself !

09.12.2009 - Challenge me? Dare you!

At last, I finished my audit today. After weeks i am away from audit, I begin to have strange feeling when I was assigned to handle audit by myself. I am an active auditor since years back but recently I was assigned more on the desk reviewing audit reports and handling technical question on audits than performing a physical audit myself. I have being sick for almost 2 weeks and today I am good to go for the audit. Although the audit is easy for me since I have being taking charge of this technical reviewing program in Asia Pacific, yet I still feel weird when I have to go on field myself after weeks away from it. Usually I took hours to digest the requirement, specification, scoring matrix and past report to make myself familiar what I should do and check during the audit. Instead of that, I only take 15 minutes to run through the checklist and then online playing Facebook games. i was worry about the audit but my senses tells me that I am okay with this audit and I can handle it easily. I was stressed since yesterday evening and my sleep was not that well. I woke up in the morning thought of taking a quick look at the checklist again but somehow I feel reluctant to do so. I took off late today and reach the site as usual around 0930 am. Audit was smooth but of course there is always some hiccup during the session. Just that I am mad when I notice some of them is trying to take advantage on me by making lies on something that they didn't do but claimed they did it. Well I am not that stupid! As long you show me nothing I assume nothing is done or complied! I am someone that talk about facts and evidence. You can talk for hours but in absense of supportive evidence I assume what you have said is invalid. The site Failed the certification audit! Before I manage to have the closing conference with the staff, I was told to get ready as they are going to fight and challenge on my findings. Well, to me I love people challenging me in this because I love taking challenges and learn things that I might be wrong on. But unfortunately it seems like they are in the loosing part if they wish to challenge me. Despite being worry or stressed, I gave him my words that they are encourage to challenge me and I am not expecting them to sit and listen to what I am about to present to them. After 15 minutes, I called everyone in the meeting room and to my surprise they drag their director in and some personnel that I have being arguing with for the past 2 years. I was impressed with their initiative and so happy to see all of them to be in the meeting room preparing themselves to attack a young man (well although I am old but I am still the youngest in that room) like me. I was laughing at myself that I am a damn important person now! There are 5 of them waiting to shoot me with their M16. I was steady that time. I didn't even scared at all and begin my presentation with greeting and purpose of audit. When I started off with the findings, everyone seem to quiet and begin to throw me question. Before they manage to ask the 2nd question, I give them all the evidence I have in hand and explained to them the consequences and issues that may arise based on the findings I found. None of them talks except looking at each other and smile to me. All of the non-conformance was stressed in the closing meeting with facts and reasons why it is rejected and why their failed to obtain the certification. but strangely none of them able to challenge me except saying thanks and being scolded by their director in front of me. wuahahahaha... What a good laugh after all. I guess I am now mastering this field but begin to feel bored with it. What else I can do other than this. No wonder my management is now throwing everything about this program to me. Fed up sometimes.