29.11.2008- Mumbai Attack

Its Cruel! damn Cruel! Msg to gunmen's family.

"If you clever enough; find job to do, raise your kids, look after your family, be a loyal husband, don't leave your wife and family behind, save the world, help the poor 1, etc. instead of killing people by bombing and assassination! I just wonder, do you have feeling and sympathy? Why are you killing those innocent people? What will you get from doing this sins? Proud? brave? Is that what you want? By the way, did Islam teach you to kill? Or you trying to make people think Islam is brave and cruel? I don't think Islam is bad! You and your entire family is bad and stupid! It is a shame to have all of you in this world. I can't imagine how would you feel if.... we rape your daughter and kill her brutally. And your son, we torture him badly, cut his finger, remove his skin, amputate his legs, dig 1 of his eye out and let him feel the pain slowly daily. I bet you will be crying, begging for help and cursing someone who did it. But now, you are lucky, your son is killed instantly after he assassinate all innocent people. But did you know that there are thousand families is going through the pain for loosing their loves one who got assassinated by your son? If we know who you are in person, in this real world, I mean you identity, we are so sure we will...... slap you, kick you, curse you, spit on you, punch you, torture you, break your bones/neck and most probably wack you to death! And of course, we will rape your daughter and poke her cunt with big damn stick penetrating thru her body! Yes, it sounds cruel, but do you think killing your daughter is more cruel than your son killing hundreds of innocent people? We are killing killer's family I don't think this is cruel. I wish to see anyone of you!"

And for the gunmen that being detained, I believe he is enjoying his stay in the prison with good hospitality. I wish I am there to serve him too. I got so many thing wanna share and play with him.

25.11.2008 - Dropped my damn Phone

I have being looking after my phone carefully like my dearly darling. Trying so hard to be gentle with it but end up grounded it on the floor; somemore in the toilet. Its like tearing a piece of my flesh away. I got it dented at the top cover. Nothing would happen if I did not fix on the hanger. The God damn hanger is approx. 1 palm length. While I try to egress from the wash room, I accidentally engaged the hanger with the tap water and then end up on the floor! Well I think am abit sensitive and have sense that some mechanism on the set is loosen. Feel so sad that I drop my treasure. hahahahaha.... Silly me; If I didn't put on the hanger, I won't have cause my set drop on the floor. Well.. if there is alot of IF in life... it won't be that bad right?

24.11.2008 - Help or not to Help

My so called god-father is again looking for me to borrow some money. He has taken from me about... RM15000 + RM10000 which is yet to return until today but again asking for RM200. He promised me to return the RM25000 when he asked for a help urgently but until today I got nothing from him except repeating calls to borrow money. I was so sad to know how bad situation he is now but borrowing him money is really frightening me. It is not that I didn't help him so far when he was involve in some fraud case in the bank; but the money taken from me is not even being repay a single penny! I call him couple of time asking him to make the repayment even in the small amount but he did it for 3 months only at RM50 each. Can you believe it?

Well.. it has been years and I tried to forget the RM25000 and trying hard forgiving him since he did help and loves me alot when I was at teenage age. But whatever he says now is not going to make me believe in him. He ask me to borrow him Rm200 and will repay it by end of month. When i questioned him why do he need Rm200 for; and he replied he owe the electric and water bill for 6 months. He is too worry that the electricity and water authority will disconnect the supply since it is due 6 months. I am not sure how true it is but I really want to help him. The problem is; how could trust him that it will be return by end of month? The way he told me about the outstanding 6 months bills, I was so sad and pitying him to be that bad situation. But comes in my mind; why didn't him pay for the bills when he got his pay monthly? I really blunt! should I help or shouldn't I?

24.11.2008 - Sony Ericsson C905

I was asking for the phone price and was hoping it is cheaper compared to Msia during my trip in Singapore. But ended up purchased it. It is SIN$880 / MYR2100 and really unexpectedly I bought it! Jeez.... really out of my mind. When I return to Msia, I was told it is yet to released in Msia market officially. Should I be happy being the first to hold the original Sony C905 or I am too stupid to buy something that expensive? I think stupid should be the right word!

Talking about the phone; it has GPS system, WIFI, Cybershot 8.1 Megapixel. Indeed it is a cool gadget. Initially I was like... wish to see the real set when I browsed the advertisement in Sony website. The set comes in 3 colors, Silver, Copper and Black. The features that appear in the video clip really impressed me especially with the GPS and WIFI systems that runs in one small portable mobile phone. Which means, I can forget about the GPS system which I plan to get 1, Sony digital camera, as well as Notebook because that piece of amazing phone comes with all that features. And yes I took the copper color. Silver and Black is too common in the market; no doubt it look weird sometimes with that fancy color; but it looks classy and different. But if I were given the chance to choose again, I'll take the silver because the silver does looks like pearl white from far distance. Cool isn't it? But, the speaker is really a disappointment. The integrated speakers located at the below of the set gives a poor sound. My old K800i is way better than my new C905. Take a look at the photos attached. Anyway it is worth to have one. Especially to those who loves to travelling with small gadget like this. You can forget about your notebook or the huge screen GPS system that gives you more weight to carry on. With this phone that comes with everything; i.e. GPS, AM/FM radio, Track ID, WIFI, Cybershot (Digital Camera), MP3 player, Games (chess), 3G, etc., you will definitely feel great with just one small palm size gadget. The only thing you have to bear with it is the silly speakers that gives you lousy ring tones sound quality.

23.11.2008 - Sister's Wedding trip

Initially the trip is so damn rush. Again I nearly miss my flight to Singapore on Thursday due to my negligence and over confidence of reaching the airport in less than an hour. By the time I reach the airport, I was like... huh.... why do I have to rush to catch a flight most of the time. I think I need to work out my time management otherwise I will miss my flight one day.

Well... although I don't really like wedding function; sister's wedding is unavoidable. Believe it or not; the event is so memorable and touching. I never been thru this before especially seeing my lovely sister being taken away; at the same time feel so happy that she is going to have her wonderful life ahead. I wish my dad is around; I bet he will be very happy to see her during the solemnization. Even though it is very hot under bare sun but its worth being sun burned to be there to witness the lovely couple exchanging their rings; committing themselves to live together under one roof, and enjoying being couple for the rest of their lives.

Lets talk about the wedding event. Traditionally for Chinese, going through the hassle like wedding eve dinner, taking sweet dumpling, knocking on bride's room, groom being punished or force to play certain game in order to reach the bride, demanding for ang pow, and all sort of things; well.... my sister.... she skip all of it. This is the nice wedding event I ever seen before. The wedding was held at the poll side, at one of Singapore luxury hotel, where their solemnization were carried out in the presence of the Justice of Peace (JP) and then with lunch at the open area with nice decoration and preparation. The event started off at the hotel room where tea serving were carried out to the seniors such as mom, in laws, brothers as well as distributing red pack to the younger generation. Hehee.. I am one of them. Then the groom and bride headed down to the pool site preparing for the solemnization next to the lunch and pool area. The solemnization process was surprisingly simple which took only approx. 20 minutes. It started off with simple speech by the JP followed by ring exchange, signing of marriage certificate, reading oath and then announcement of husband and wife. Buffet lunch session start right after that with lots of variety of foods and drinks. Isn't that simple and nice? This is a very nice wedding method but ... it is damn hot under bare sun. Everything is perfect except getting yourself sweat, sticky, and sun burn during wedding occasion. Can you imagine? Sweat all over; shirt is sticking to your body; worst of all your shirt's color is turning to darker than it should be. No fan no air-con nothing except food under hot sun! I can't even eat! The heat, sweat and sticking 'thing' on your body; no matter how good the food is, you won't have the appetite to eat. Well, there is nothing to complain; to me the ceremony is iimportant and really impressed me with the arrangement such as tea serving process that simple and short which involve those important person only in a private room and then solemnization at the pool area which later comes with lunch. Its easy and simple. Nothing to worry about like the traditional way which takes hours and days to complete. By end of day everyone is tired, broke and drunk (walking from table to table on evening dinner drinking like free beer supply). For my sister wedding... with 2 night stay, use of the solemnization table, pool area, lunch buffet for 150 person .... cost her S$10500. I think it is still worth!

Although most of the guest are strangers to me, but my spirits of getting involve is still strong because of my sister and mom. I manage to go through this event even though I hate wedding event. Well... it is a tiring trip but to me, its worth for every minutes to be here witnessing my sister going thru her big day. May GOD bless her and her family. Thank you so much to my god brother Alvin and family who is always around to support us and love us at all time.

22.11.2008 - Fall In Love with someone I don't even know.

My trip to Singapore is so amazing. I spotted 1 nice and pretty lady during my sister's wedding. She is my sister's best friend. Her looks is so attracting and really make me fall to her at one look! According to my sister, she is a wonderful person, funny, friendly and lovely.

Well there is nothing much to think off; courting this type of girl is really out of the topic. Who wanted a man like me, ugly, fat and poor. I didn't even dare to think of it. Posted her picture in case you think I make up some stories. She is the prettiest girl I ever come across. I wish I can find someone like her... exactly like her. and if I did I will lay down to my knee and do whatever she wanted me to do. Its like one whole package in her. Perfect is the right word to describe her. I'll give her 10/10. I bet thousand of Singapore guys is waiting for her... long Q man...

BEST ARTICLE I EVER READ! HOPE ALL THE WOMEN UNDERSTAND THIS

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders. Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. . . I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.
"Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.

My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?" He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow.... " My hopes just sank by listening to his response.
I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....

My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further.." This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading. "When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.
You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face...
Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. " My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting. .... and as I continue on reading...



"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...
I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread...... Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.
Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and that's our life... Love, not words win arguments..

17.11.2008 – “Fire Flying” man

I am going to say the same thing again and again. It is my tiring and boring day today. After 2 days of my company’s annual dinner at Bukit Merah, again I am flying to KL on Monday early morning and back home late evening. As usual, catching the earliest flight from Penang to Kl and last flight from KL to Penang. Believe me or not, I only manage to get my flight ticket on late Sunday. Funny is approval yet obtained from my management. Whether anyone of your going to laugh or not; I am down here just to “key-in’ some silly report that only takes me 2 hours. DUH?!!

Things never being straight to me! I woke up early in the morning about 6am; and left my house around 6.30am to catch a flight at 8.10am. another words, I have about 1 ½ hours to reach airport from my house; Kulim to Penang island. I never worry about this and tried couple of time making through this. Infact driving from Kulim to Penang takes only 45 minutes only. To my disappointment, I nearly missed my flight due to unreasonable traffic jam on the bridge. I was expecting an accident which cause the jam but it was nothing! Nothing! It just stuck up there without any reason. This is so stupid and does not make sense at all. I am lucky this time and I manage to get myself check in (of course being warned by the counter officer) otherwise; who is the one should we blame? I am so angry with this and of course sleepy as well. I slept from Penang to KL and now expecting the same for KL to Penang. I am now sitting at the LCCT terminal and it is approx. 06:40 pm. And writing an email to my fellow bosses lodging complains for pre-arranging me in a rush trip to Vietnam this coming December. Really cant wait to go home! Really fire in my ass… pissed off!

15.11.2008 – Annual Screw-Up Dinner at BUREK Merah

I am telling myself that I will not attend the dinner this year no matter how. Honestly I have no more mood to join for this dinner especially under our new administrator. Partly due to missing fellow good colleague years back; but do I have the choice? i receive an invitation from our HR department to be presence for 10 years service award; and it will not be nice if I was not there when my name was called.

So I took my mom along for this year but it is a disappointment trip. The dinner, breakfast and lunch; is so horrible! Bukit Merah Laketown is totally screwed up. No one maintain the hotel, no one care about the quality of the food, the ecopark is so dirty and smelly, the orang utan park so called biggest in the world is so boring until you cant even have close contact with the animal. The keeper will take you around in the so call caged cave surrounded by trees. If you see the orang utan, you are considered lucky because only small amount of orang utan is there. Talking about the food serve during the dinner, you won’t believe it. It is like a piece of shit! Can you imagine they serve Ikan Kembung in the dinner? Nasi Goreng? Fries? Mix Vege? Curry Chicken? Salty sausage? Damaged shrimps flesh? I can’t believe it! They even server this the next morning breakfast. The same salty sausage, damaged oranges and overdue juices. Flies were around the food and you can even see their staffs playing with the foods. No wonder the fruits are in broken pieces; it is because these morons ( the workers ) is rearranging the fruits by using the same tools customer using. The more contact you make with the fruits the more damages you gonna cause to the fruits. I can’t imagine how would tourist going to comment about this. It is a shame!

11.11.2008 – Kelantan oh Kelantan

It is a nice trip especially going to places like Kelantan. Travelling to other places sometimes does change my mood too rather than KL KL KL KL. It is of course tiring to travel from Penang to KL then to KB via MAS; and also returning on the same day. I did not expect this would be a good trip since taking a new task which I am not being trained is very risky. Well, even though it is not as smooth as I wanted to, but the process is quite challenging and makes me eager to know more about the technical and mechanical requirement in this project. Just the travelling itself takes me almost 7 hours to reach in Kuala Krai. Touching down in Sultan Ismail Petra Airport is not an end of travelling to the destination; it requires another 1 ½ hours of taxi drive from the airport to the destination (Kuala Krai). Can you imagine that? By the time I reach the site, I almost stunt and blunt. I have only 5 hours to complete my work before taking the same cab back to the airport and then to KL to catch another flight to Penang. Unexpected, I was greeted and welcomed to the site by the site’s manager and his family which makes my work more easy for the day. Tea were served, bread comes along and his son…. Takes me around the site with complete explanation and briefing. Really makes my job easier.

07.11.2008 - Headache with Everything

As I predicted, again another busy day. Went to office early in the morning, check email regularly and clearing all the backlogs before taking a fast/short lunch. Took off at 1215 heading to Ipoh and managed to attend the meeting in time @ 1400. I thought I was late but my boss... they even worst than me. Had some discussion with my client from US which took us less than an hour. 2 hours drive from Penang and less than hour meeting? Damn this is ridiculous. Really wasting my time. By the time depart from the factory, my watch shows 1500; by the time I reach office its going to be 1700 which is off office hours. Such, I pull over at Ipoh Jusco and had an ice blended mocha at Coffee Bean stall chatting with my old friend. I took a lift at about 1830 heading back home later than. Initially I was planning to go for SPA in Ipoh town but alone; I guess it will be boring; that is why I ended up sitting at the Coffee Bean for hours talking all craps and non sense with my good old friends and looking at Ipoh girls passing by 1 by 1. Indeed, Ipoh girls are so pretty. Penang? Nope.... Ipoh is better.

The return trip is so boring and sleepy. It was dark and somehow I feel it is so far from home. I was speeding at 150kph but still I can feel it like 80kph. I am exhausted, tired, sleepy, headache, hungry, soar throat and slight fever I guess. Just to stay awake I call friends with my mobile and chat until I reach home. I am so tired by then and head straight to dining room for dinner. I just put anything I see on the dish in my mouth but somehow don't know why it is tasteless. I guess I am too tired. what a day!

07.11.2008 - Why me?

I just don't get it; I am not the only security auditor in my company. There are total 3 including me, my boss and another junior.

Initially I thought I will be extremely busy for this month only since I need to fly to KL on 3th and 4th, then drive to Ipoh on 7th which is today & 26th, 2 days audits on 13th and 14th, another security audit on 10th, fly to Kelantan on 11th and return on 12th, driving to Bukit Merah for dinner on 15th & 16th, 17th to 19th in KL again, 21st to 23rd in Singapore and NOW 1st to 5th December to Vietnam. HEY... why me?

I hate this month so much!

06.11.2008 - 'Broken Wallet'

It is my mom's periodically medical check up today. Took 1/2 day off from work to send mom to Adventist hospital. Again, spent RM580 for the medical and consultation fee. wow...

Don't fall sick if you are poor. Because the private hospital will suck all your money before you die. hahahaha....

06.11.2008 - World Full of Beauties

My trip to Shah Alam was rushing but it never stop me from seeing good looking girls around the blocks. KL girls are so cute and sexy. Their dressing is so revealing and most of it looks sexy. Somehow they still lose to our sexy AirAsia air stewardess. :)

Of all the place I've been, damn; the hawkerstall near to the UTAR USJ is the best. I can see hundreds of fresh chicks walking around with branded jeans, handbags, cloths and thick make up. most of them stopping by for breakfast. Some like modelling around, dressed-up like going to clubbing, shopping; while some are with cigarette puffing like hookers. But most of them.. huh... pretty little mermaid. My cup of Milo really resting well from hot to cold since I am busy looking around and enjoying the great scene around that stall.

What really surprise me about these girls... they are UTAR's students. Smoking around the corner next to the Uni, dressed up like models, make-up like going to balls, carrying expensive bags & accessories, etc. They doesn't look like a students or some educated person. What a shame! I am not expecting them to be some nerd but at least watch out what you are wearing and carrying as a students. Well, I can't blame much about raping cases in KL, in fact these girls are the one that looking for troubles. These girls are well pampered by their parents. I wish I can be one of them, worry less and spending like no one business.

06.11.2008 - Busy Day

Agggrhhhh.... So tiring. I hate traveling! Too many things on the desk! I didn't stop working from 9am to 8pm and even work while eating during lunch hour. My mobile phone non stop ringing until 10:30pm from Malaysia, HK, Dubai, ... until I forgotten I am due for dinner. Stomach is calling me badly but ... aiya.... so tiring. And now I have to book for my flights to Kelantan next Tuesday. I wish someone accompanying me this trip; probably someone lovely and sweet. Hahaha.. In my dream huh?

05.11.2008 - Tiring Trip

Travelling from Penang to Shah Alam by flight is really tiring. I was assigned to a task / training on Monday and Tuesday under new program which I am not specialized in. In fact I am expecting this to be challenging and interesting. Before I manage to think ahead of the task, I have being cracking my head on the flight and accommodation. Generally this should be handled by the company coordinator or clerk or secretary; but in my department, I need to do it myself. Well, thanks to my great Division Manager who is creating too many problems with all other LOB/divisions. It is even tough when my company is practising cutting cost due to the down turn of the economy. I have questions lingering in my head; what is my business manager doing so far; especially when my great boss call me; an operation guy asking why our business drops almost 30 percents for the past few months.

I have limited choice except travelling on Monday and return on Tuesday. It is a rush trip and the task........ is so fucked up. Honestly I doesn't know how bad my Div Mgr got argued with this client but I know he (client) is not happy with our presence. He treated us like 3 years old kids and questioning us like we are an expert in industrial automotive engineers. It is a challenge but a suck-up challenge. He is humiliating us more than guiding us through out the field work session. And now I have to run on my own in Kelantan by next week. It is going to be very tough.

Aggrrrhhh... I am so tired. With less sleep, standing all day long, thirsty and concentrating to what the stupid trainer says really makes me exhausted. I drop to dead on my bed once I reach home.