29.06.2009 - Love Or Money

I get to know 1 beautiful bitch last week and we had a great chat since then. There is nothing between us except net friend; and yes we are clean and no other intention. To me beautiful bitches are usually an assholes and cheap chicks. But I love talking to these people trying to know more about what they want and what is their goal in life.

I asked alot of questions about her life and of course a common question ' are you still single??'. Although I know most of these bitches are well attached to rich bastards, but I do enjoy asking just to test on their honesty. Yes, I enjoy doing this because in fact I am trying to humiliate them but none of them ever realised that. And of course, the answer is 'yes I am still single and available' but actual, they are not. Usually they started to be very quiet, proud and pretending to be innocent but if you know how to click with them, they will tell you everything about them to you straight ahead; no filter. So for this little bitch; okay.. I know it sounds rude but the this is the fact. She is a bitch! Ok Ok.. So... as at yesterday I touched some questions that I have being keeping for days. This how it starts.

I begin with small chats and then straight to her nerves. I diverted all her topic to money and of course accusing her spending alot of money. I asked her again if she is single and available, she says yes and then no and then hinting me something else. I was like.. HUH? As I am not a silly guy, I putting words that assuming she is attached and whatever she spends is probably from her boyfriend or someone special. She says NO and it is her money. Well, she is the one revealing the facts that she is a big spender. She posted on her MSN that she is going to Shanghai, HK and Macau. If you think a Property Sales Executive afford to spend that much during the economy crisis? I don't think so. So, I put some words on her accusing her of digging her boyfriends money. She insisted that she is single and it is her money that she spends. But she fights back and deliberately claimed that there is nothing wrong for a pretty lady like her to dig her boyrfriend's money. She throw 1 question to me; 'why cannot dig boyfriend's money?'. According to her, it is man's responsible to pay for her girlfriends expenditure. I BEG YOUR PARDON! Yes of course I put my stand as a man! I says, why should we spend then? Aren't you earning your own money? and she says... We woman earn our money for our own expenses like saloon, make up accessories, slimming classes, etc. in other words keeping themselves looks great at all time. I was stunt and begin asking her more and more questions. She doesn't seems to be satisfying what she has now. The strange part is; she is asking for my real name, my profession, where I am staying, etc. like interviewing for a new victim. She told me that her looks always sell her out. According to her, although she is single, a lot of guys like me always assume she is attached and no longer available. She complaint that with her profession, a lot of rumors have being around her; talking about how she approach people, how she make those business man choose to deal with her and how those businessman's wife look at her. She said most of these old ladies call her 'lao ciau' (an experienced bitch who choose to cheat man's money irregardless of married or not). She sound pitiful huh? To me she is just making up the stories. I never give up digging her story. I know these kind of woman, they are materialistic than talking about love. When I questioned her about love, she ask me not to be serious about it and love is not everything but money is. My GOD! I think she sell off her body and beauty for materials. She keeps on saying that she is good, never hang out late night, love to stick at home, love her parents, bla bla bla, so on... But to me I think she is just making another fun of herself.

Coincident 1 of my friend came to know her lately for about days. My friend who have being appearing in my Friendster's list for years, however manage to catch that bitch attention. She asked me if I know so call 'my friend'; what a silly question! Of course I say yes and she says my so call friend is a nice lady. What I did was, I quickly message my friend who is also online that time, asking if she know this bitch. So my friend says yes and added that this bitch claimed to her that she is attached with a rich boyfriend age 32. See... gotcha! I think she is fishing for another stupid fellow but too bad she chosen a wrong 1!. Wuaha..... hhahaa.. So I went back to her MSN and ask her again if she is so sure that her face does sell her out and she is still single and available. She says yes! I was laughing and asked if she has twin sister... she was shocked and ask why. I put it to her that my so call friend unveiled to me about her things... I love this part; making her feel shame and speechless. Indeed she stunts for moment and did not even dare response at all. After week of chatting, finally she lay low keeping quiet. When she returns, she says to me that she did not mentioned to me she has no boyfriend. What a silly! Seriously I think she is just another bitch that doesn't have dignity but pussy that free for fuck just to get money and things that she thinks is worth for. She is worst than prostitute because prostitute is working for living but she is giving for luxury and materials.

So, to conclude this story, woman nowadays can no longer be trusted. The more they look better, man should be more alert! They willing to sell every part of their body to anyone in this world just to own things they wish to have. Although he is married, ugly or whatever, to them it is not important at all because their main goal is to give what they have for what men wants as a trade for what they want. Once these silly men are dry, then they will start searching for a replacement. This is what she says "this is men's' responsible. men need to pay for what they want".

Well, I am so satisfy with this. I get what I want too. Knowing so many beautiful bitches that keep lies beneath them. Thinking how great and brilliant they are but never realized that man like me are good in digging their story, making fun of her although I know what she is going for and unveiling her games to anyone out there. I love doing this stuffs. So guys out there, if you are reading this, please wake up and act quickly. Don't be a silly donkey working just to pay for someone who is yet to be your wife. Don't be a ATM machine, but a ATM user. Be smart! For those who are married, play smart don't waste that kind of money for some pussy like her. Get pay for what you want and get it done in an hour and don't trapped in this kind of scandal. Otherwise you will end up broke and silly.

WHAT A FUCKING BITCH!

25.06.2009 - Tough decision for Friendship

Sometimes I do ask myself what can I do to make things better in my workplace. Although alot of my staffs respect me, never raise their voice to me, scare of me and listen to me but they are too dependent on me all the time. I forced them from time to time to handle tough tasks and motive them all time to work harder, take challenges and sometimes helping them to cover problems that they made. But I do teach them lesson in hard way and even issue them warning letter to make them aware the importance of responsibility in work, liability of the task being given and to be more vigilant during at work. But they choose to ignore all these; take things too easy, take thing for granted and forget about their responsibility. We are very close to each other like big family. Although we argue and fights during work it never stop us being close like brothers and big family. Today... I am so disappointed with 1 of them who is my favorite staff. I shouted at him and demanded his explanation for a big trouble he has made. He was arguing with me; insisted he is correct and the quantity he tallied during 1 of the task given to him is correctly calculated and witness by him at all time. But now, client is coming to us claiming there are excessive quantity submitted instead of the original request. I was stunt and mad over what happened. Despite of my advice and push, he takes things easily and ignore the importance of his task. He is searching all the excuses he can when I questioned him and manipulating the facts when I concluded and discovered his wrong doing and careless. I was in low term when talking to him but ended up shouting at him with strong words. Best part is no one dare to talk to me when I started to raise my voice. I am so firm with the conclusion and listing it out what mistakes he had done. I am so disappointed with this but at the same time searching for ways to settle this simplest way I can to avoid any serious action that might be taken against him. But with the current situation whereby 'war' among 'DM and 'EVP' fighting for the task I am handling, the existence of an insider in my office, involvement of the task with other LOB, I can no longer keep this silent but to make it official by alerting my top management and putting it in emails. I was so sad when writing the email and it is even worst when I receive phone calls from my DM. The funny part is, I sound like being interrogated instead of the person who is convicted guilty. I explained the situation and was told to take necessary action against him which includes termination of his service in my company. Seriously he deserved to be warned and suspended but if you talk about termination, I never agree with that. I tried to persuade him and giving him all the facts that termination is not a best solution as it is only discarding the experienced staff. No doubt he is careless most of the time and irresponsible, we should consider giving him chances to improve and make him realized the lost we have to bear with for what he has done for the day. But when I think of it over and over again for what I said, I feel strange because he has being working in my company for almost 12 years and have being acting irresponsible since the day 1 he joined. In fact he is my senior but somehow I am the one step ahead of him now. Do I need to reconsider what I am talking about? Anyway to me I rather take the challenge to change him and help him than causing him loosing a job. Even he is not married, he has parents to look after and a breadwinner in the family. I will not let him go. I am so tired and confused. I tried to talk and gives excuses after several attempt of pleasing that being turned down by my DM. I will call him again tomorrow to iron this out and to help my staff to retain his seat and job. I know that my DM is going to have big hit from the MD due to the silly insider in my office but I will give my very best to keep him a job. I'll pray for better tomorrow.

14.06.2009 - Lazy Sunday

My Sunday is regular cleaning day. I woke early in the morning, went for 4.4 km jog, out for breakfast and then back home cleaning as usual. The weird things that happen for the day is, I felt very tired and weak. Something is very strange with my body; i can feel the tiredness badly until the extend of dizzy and feels like vomiting. Well, when age catch up this is what happened. Seriously I don't really care much about it because I have many things I need to look at instead of thinking sick or weak. So, after my jog, I too k my mom out for nice 'dim sum' at Taman Selasih, Kulim. The 'siew mai' and 'fish ball' is fantastic. Although we know it contain lots of artificial flavour; I mean 'ajinomoto' and some edible chemical that makes them chewy and tasty, it never stop us from enjoying it; but of course not that frequent la.. Look at the texture .. great doesn't it? Sorry I am too busy eating and forgotten to take a snap on the 'fish ball'. So, right after the great breakfast, I begin my cleaning today , cleaning air con, sweep floor, vacuuming, wiping dusts, brushing the external floor, throwing rubbish, mopping, etc.. By 2pm, everything is completed. I can't wait for a cold shower! But before I did, mom was waiting for me at the dining table, warming up the steamboat stove and getting ready for steamboat session. I was like.. HUH? again steamboat? Anyway I love home made steamboat, just that I am too tired thinking of food but hungry. So I quickly ran to my room, got myself cleaned and rushed to the dining room, but mom was missing. She is in the guest room doing some ironing. Since she is busy, I took couple of ice cube, put it in a bag and straight I go to the guest room, switch on the air con, lye down on the bed and place those wrapped ice cube on my forehead and my eyes. So.... relaxing. Great! So after we 'steamboating' we took an hour rest and then straight we go on the bed slept till 7pm. Being whole day in the house, we plan for a trip out just to make our day complete rather than sitting in the house watching TV. We ended up at Autocity Prai, Penang, Swensen having ice cream and then walking around that area. It was so coincident that there are 2 events at that area. the traffic is so bad, full of cars parking right and left and people are walking in the middle of the road like no body business. We parked our car slightly far away and took a hard walk to Swensen. Lots of things in the event, but more suitable to those car lovers. Lots of 'weird' and 'monster' look cars. Yes, it is modified cars with weird colors and design. It is too crowded until I feel uncomfortable to walk around; I hate crowded place! Since we are already there, we took a quick walk around the area and spotted lots of weird look car and the most fun is the audio system that they fixed in the car. I love audio system but the way they fixed it, I think these people is really crazy. You can hear the 'boom' from metersssss away. So, with all the crowd and hot weather, I decided to move out quickly and return home soonest we can for cold shower and of course for our late evening dinner. We still have lots of left over steamboat dish during lunch. Unfortunately, we received an sms from a friend of mine that the entire town area at the place where I am from is having electric failure. Yes no electricity! and it is already 10pm. I was like.... HUH? sleeping without air con or fan during this hot weather? I rather sleep in the toilet with running water on my body. Wuahaha... but I am a very lucky person, before we enter our house, the electricity is back on business. I am so happy! so, we quickly have our shower and start cooking our foods. We have our steamboat until 1130pm and then resting on the couch until 1230am. Now I am in my room writing blogs and then soon going to be like fat little pig sleeping after meal. What a day!!!

11.06.2009 - Silly and Stupid!

I was sitting on my couch thinking again and again, how could a little young lady that I know told me something strange when I called her this evening. Thinking over and over again, I still cannot accept the fact that there are still someone in this world that could risk themselves doing something that they don't really know what it is all about. If someone tells me that they are doing something for good or a bet for business, I still manage to take it but if you would to say, something like meeting someone you don't even know based on a phone call, I think this is damn ridiculous!

I drop a call to my so call 'girl friend' thought of having an evening chat while I was on the way home; as regular, we talk about what we did during the day and then about lunch and so on. And then she started to tell me that she is on the way home, and will be going out again tonight to meet up someone she don't really know who he is. I was like stunt awhile and ask her how could that be? She laugh and says that she received a call from a stranger identified himself as Louis and demanded her to meet up for some discussion. I immediately throw her a question if she know who he is; and she replied to me 'NO'. This is really a silly answer. I asked her if she should reconsider about meeting up with a stranger and she replied; she should meet him up because she cannot recalled if he is her customer since she is on the sales line. That is the most ridiculous answer I ever get from a girl!. She willingly to risk her life just because of eager to know who he is and thinking it is kind of fun to discover it that way. Imagine she is talking it like fun and laughing all the way when she explains to me. I really give up on her, sometimes I wish she grow up and behave maturely but sometimes she is not. Well, woman is like that, whatever they do, it is correct and whatever man did is always wrong. The best way for them to learn is to to experience the pain. they can only learn when they got the hit from the actual situation otherwise they always accuse man are too sensitive and over protecting. Like old people says ' no pain no gain '. Am giving up!

11.06.2009 - Great Lunch

I had a great lunch today. Initially I was thinking of having a simple lunch saving up my money but with all the pushes by all my staffs, we ended up having a big delicious lunch in one of the famous Claypot Chicken Rice in Chai Leng Park Butterworth. We walked 300 meters away from our office to reach the shop and was thinking of making a small orders but ended up with several dishes that sum up MYR60 for 5 of us. So, by average we need to spend around MYR13 per head; well I guess it is over spend. Anyway I don't have to pay for my portion because my staff refuse to take my money. How wonderful if I have free meals every day for a year. Hahahaha... Look at the picture I attached on. We have 5 head count claypot chicken rice with alot of ingredients, claypot curry fish head and claypot chicken leg. Wonderful... delicious! I bet this meal is putting extra calories and fat in my big tummy. I need to run few more round by tomorrow to burn it out otherwise I am going to be fat little monster. It is so irresistible looking at this picture. Imagine the taste, slightly spicy, sweet, well cooked rice, smooth texture, perfect cooked chicken meat and of course the soft and fresh fish in a great curry gravy. Everyone is having the meal quietly with finger licking good. Forget about KFC, this finger licking good is much worth than KFC! Hahaha.....

07.06.2009 - It is HURT

I got my hand and leg with scratches! Yesterday... I was cleaning the bushes at my garden and washing my car. Those bushes and weeds are so sharp and cut my leg and hands. Ah... so painful. Today, as regular, I woke up early and begin my day with Jogging and then house cleaning. I noted that my house ceiling fan is extremely dirty and decided to dismantle it and rinse it with water. While preparing the staircase, i gear up with all the tools. I climb up the staircase and before I reach the highest level, I try to reach the fan flap by swinging my hand up. Before I manage to reach the flap, my palm got hit the edge of the staircase hardly and a piece of my flash came out. No blood was found since it is too sudden but few seconds later, eee... lots of blood spill out from that hole. I was so cool that time; I took a nail cutter, pull the hanging flesh and cut it off and press the wound with a piece of tissue. I quickly clean the wound with running tap water and then quickly reach the iodine. I got it fixed up a minute later and only started to feel the pain. I have no choice but to continue cleaning the fans, mopping the floor and then washing toilet. So tired... But later... HUH! I charge back with delicious home made steamboat. Look at these pictures... tempting huh? After great meal, I took an hour nab. Wonderful. I woke up fresh and fully charged. Took several glass of water and fruits and begin checking emails. But the damn weather is freaking. It is so hot like living in the oven. I sweat everywhere I sit and rest. Because of thirst, I went to kitchen to take few more glass of water and decided to have some juice. Since there are bowls and glasses at the kitchen sink, I decided to clean it. I thought of having my juice with a big bowl but unfortunately, because of the pain I encountered while taking the bowl, I quickly release the bowl and fell on the floor. My favorite bowl now in broken pieces. Aiya.... what a bad day. Just of that, I have no more interest on the juice.

So... since we are whole day in the house, we decided to pay a visit to my father's old friend. Usually I prefer to wear jeans when I go out but today, due to the bad weather I decided to wear Bermuda pants. We reach at that uncle house around half an hour later and had a great chat with them for an hour. With all the dogs in the house, it really makes me feel uncomfortable at all because I don't really like dogs. I would say Pets not dogs. Since it is late, I decided to take a move back but unfortunately, one of the dog attack me from the back. That bastard bite my leg! I wish I can kill that silly bastard but there is nothing much I can do since it is my dad's best friend's dog. So pissed off! Seriously I really don't know how serious that is but I think it should be classified as minor as the teeth of the dog does not penetrate deep inside, it is just scratch on the skin and bleed. Anyway I will pay a visit to my panel doctor tomorrow. Ah.. what a day.

04.06.2009 - Blunt ME

6Sometimes I really don't know what I want. Initially I do enjoy being together with her but when our friendship move longer, I started to feel strange and tired! She is older than me, a year, a very caring person, someone that love her own family so much, love staying at home, able to do housework, etc. in other words, she is perfect except her temper. I rejected her plenty time but yet she never give up giving me the best she had and showing me her care towards me. I tried to distance with her but the longer she care for me.. the deeper I have the feel towards her. I am not sure if my prediction is correct. I keep on telling myself that I will regret if I continue go on with her because we both are very bad tempered person. I having lay low previously seeing if she can improve but I can see nothing except throwing tantrum and calls/SMS that looking for fault with me. i made my last call few months back that we should stop considering each other and look forward for something better for life. I know she hurt deeply but I think it is good for the two of us. Although we are yet being together as a couple, but the feels is lingering there between us that is unsolvable. During these few months, i can feel the cold reaction she gives me; although it is deeply pain inside me, I just lay low and keep quiet at all time.

Lately, I noticed that she is getting better and enjoy her life more than before. She take things easily and respect everyone besides her compared to previously. I heard her calls with friends and of course from close friend of mine that she is now going / dating a guy. I am very happy that she is looking for a better way out but deep inside me, I just don't understand why I had the strange feels. I feel jealous! That is so funny! How can that be if I am the one to call off and now I started to have this strange feel. I thought there is nothing between us but why am I feel jealous? Sometimes I really don't know what I want. I have being given something that special but of course nothing is perfect, but I reject it. I really hope I know how to walk out from my own problem.

31.05.2009 - Sunday My Day

Another boring Sunday. Woke up early in the morning, feel sleepy, change my cloths and then out I go for my weekend jogging. Then back home doing my weekend routine; cleaning the house. But this week, I added gardening and clearing bushes. Damn tired and whole body aching and itchy. The damn insects and bushes is really makes my whole body itchy. After a long work and tiredness, I tried to take a nab in the afternoon but somehow, I feel fresh. Gosh what a day.

So, after dinner, we are a bit bored with the day; going no where but sitting on the couch watching TV. While resting, i received a call from a friend of mine dating me out. I was so lazy and tired but, this one, I cannot reject because she is special to me. So I meet her up and we had a great chat all the way back to her house.

It is hard to judge someone with the look; that is why a phrase being prevail for this as; Never Judge The Book By Its Cover. I actually have no hope on this friend since she is a rich man's daughter, spend money like no body business and living in a life style which I cannot get along with. Age might be a great gab but I do like to look at her since the day 1 I met her last year. While I was driving, she tells me about her past and how they struggle for living during old time. Although she is young and raw, but her presentation on her history is really touching. The bitter they have to go through and how they survive until today. Although most of the time, she is in the great side; I mean the bitter part is more on the older generation; which is the parents, but the story is really so touching until the extend of reminding me of my past. GOD is great! whatever happen does has the reason! But to what I see, she has lack of guidance and teaches. Although she is young, she does seems to understand a bit about having tough times; unlikely some people that still day dreaming about being luxury with empty pocket. Age might be the factor but I think she will be a perfect person in time to come.

To me, the bitter that our family went through gives us great lesson of how to be a successful and not to be dependant to people. It gives us strength to move forward and seek for better solution day by day. It takes us hard time to learn but to me it is worth by end of day because, I am using and spending something that I earn with my both hand and leg. I always put a blame to our might GOD but after being sometimes being explained by my sister, now I really realised that whatever happen does has the reason beneath. It is the matter of time for us to understand why and to accept it. I'll talk more about this in my next blog.