I have being away from the blog for so long and wishes that I have plenty time to sit on my desk in my room and start writing all I been thru but unfortunately I dont have that much to spend on my desk to vent off my thing. Work is so stressful and boring. I guess 13 years is way too long in the same place. I tried many ways to search for job but none was successful. I am currently using head hunter and willing to get lesser pay to get back my quality time and life. I am tired!
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Monday, 30 May 2011
Monday, 9 May 2011
03.05.2011 - I am going out!
Working in a company that full of shit is making feel I am piece of shit lying on the floor. I keep telling myself, this is part of work life! Political issue does not meant for governmental level only but it is involved greatly in an organization. Although they are not as critical as governmental parties, but they are more cruel compared to others. I am working in a shit hole that full of shits in there. Despite having the says that he hates politic in his team, yet he is the biggest politician in our company, practicing cronyism and discrimination. Not sure if he is part of corruptions agenda like Barisan Nasional! I am a person who hates politics especially in the office / organization or family. I always keep telling myself, stay within my circle and keep everything as low and problem free from any of the parties in my organization. But things never happen as what I wish for. The political problem crushes between the northern and central region of my office comes majority from my department due to my silly big boss who enjoy attacking anyone that he refused to work with or anyone he dislike. Yes he is a sissy, silly and bitchy! Worst of all, his so call assistant; which I think more suitable to address as private secretary is making everything worsen. I keep wondering why the hell am I being assigned to join his team? Well, not to say he is totally an asshole, he is indeed a good leader in managing situation fairly, awarding his cronies, siding his cronies and making things correct although it is wrong for his cronies. My life in this company is full of horror when he keep attacking every single person he dislike in the branch I work in. To worsen my life, he uses me as his weapon to kick everyone ass. Ya I am paid to be a donkey! It is just the title 'Manager' but in reality, I am just another office boy cum operator cum administrator cum security guard cum prostitute. I cannot imagine the donkey years I have been here for and yet I am still here waiting for someone to keep fooling me around. He repeatedly mentioned that I am a lead in northern but in reality I am just another donkey carrying other people burdens and shits. I was told that someone else is leading the team in my office, in my department who have being missing most of the time having his sweet time outing but declaring marketing / sales. How am I going to back stab him if he is a close friend of mine. I was asked to look after him and be friend with him but at the end he is another same level of person I am sitting next to holding a position of executive? I was then told that he is not reporting to me, thus he is not under my control. Well, if he is, why the hell I have look after him and shadowing what he does? 2 head in a department? I guess I need to wake up and move on with a new life. Yes I have greatest challenge for the past 2 to 3 weeks ago by searching for other opportunity. Seriously speaking, I don't mind having a low pay as long I work happily and free from all the shits i am having since the past 13 years. I am sick and tired over this again and again without having a solution. I tried to talked, argued and even retaliated but at the end, I have to obey whatever they asked me to without a single question. My surprise is, this silly boss always forces me to say yes but he keep asking me not to be his YES man. He made the decision, finalized it and want me to agree! He says 'what is your comment'. If I comment it, he says I am not respecting his decision and he will move on with it without any further consideration. If he wish to do what he wants, well why in the first place he calls me and ask me to comment? just to say YES or what? Fuck man... I really hate to deal with these 2 person who have being very childish and disrespectful. If I given the chance to kick someone butt, I will surely choose him and her!!!
02.05.2011 - Sight of Life
Life can be happening and miserable. People said its up to us to choose what we want it to be. To me I don't think so. Life to me is meaningless and full of shits. Humans are silly as they grow older and wiser they make more mistakes themselves. The inventor was praised over what they specialized at and invented for human sake but in reality they are full of shits! The more human invented, the more human have to struggle to own it and enjoy it. There is where competition and struggles comes. There is no turning back except the end of the world. Seriously, I am blunt why I am created in this world. Blames goes to my mom, dad, grandpa, grandma, ancestors and so on. Well, this is it... I have to live with it rather than thinking twice and keep on pointing fingers to who causes me here. I am not as fortunate like Paris Hilton or any millionaire but I am fortunate that I am born perfect with pair of hands and legs. With the perfectness, I have to work hard and struggle every breath I have to live and stay alive in this damn world. If I am given the choice, I rather be a dust or cloud or anything else except a living creatures. Life ain't that wonderful if you are broke or mindless; except you have aims and goals. But at the end you still need to fight and push yourself to achieve it rather than sitting still waiting for it to happen.
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