27.06.2010 - HIGH BLOOD???

I feel so weak today. Just wish to lie on bed for whole day but with my weekend cleaning schedule, I have no other choice except embracing myself to get it done soonest possible. I begin cleaning my house and planned to paint my house, clean my car and then going out buying some groceries. While I was sweeping the floor, a friend called prompting me for our yearly blood donation which is today. Despite having too many things on my mind including writing my reports, I was in the plan to reject it but I just don't feel good at all rejecting a charity programme. I immediately change my cloths and jump into his car once he reached. As regularly I complete the form, resting on the chair waiting for my turn for blood test and pressure check. Everything was fine until blood pressure check station. I was told by a young doctor that my blood pressure is slightly above the permissible level which I am not entitling for blood donation. I was so sad to know that I am a high blood pressure patient. I have being having regular jog and managing my meal from time to time but how could that be? Is it genetically from my father? But I am so sure it is because of the stress I been thru for the past few weeks ago. No one will ever know about this except myself; how stressful I am working under someone that does not listen. I really hope I can find something that makes me sleep well and free from all the stress.

26.06.2010 - Need for Peace

This what Chinese phrases says 'if you don't have that big head never wear a big hat'. It teaches you not to do something beyond your capabilities. Despite knowingly we are short of manpower, we being forced to take the challenge and be blamed for not initiatives to seek for solution. Having low revenue due to low price offered was not taken into consideration.

To make things run smoothly me and my manager are forced to be on the ground / on field just to ensure orders are completely handled and completed according to the datelines. Me and my fellow colleague were on the schedule to Johor yesterday. Our journey was tiring and not makig any sense. We have to fly to Senai airport and then travel to Batu Pahat on the road for almost 2 hours. The next morning we've done the audit which spend us one whole day from 9pm to 10pm. Everyone of us knock out when we reach our hotel. Talking about hotel, we were provided with a budget hotel. Initially we were frustrated and sad over what we were treated but looking at the room which is not that bad makes us feel slightly better. Room was small but was well maintained and equipped. Each of us were given a room where we have our own privacy during at night like calling their loves one and of course away from the snoring during night sleep. What we hate most is the lousy breakfast they served. Even a pack of Nasi lemak would taste better than what they have.

We are now on the way to senai airport with 1 lousy taxi; an old old mercedes Benz that seems to struggle alot. I hope we can reach the airport as what we planned but looking at the old taxi driver uncle and of course his lousy taxi that older than my age I am too worry it might break down half way. He seems to consistently and repeatedly accelerate the car but the speed remains at 80kph. We are now entering the highway and hoping everything turns well like we expected. Things never moves as what I planned. Looks like I need to go for a break and rest peacefully with a girl sitting and accompanying beside me.

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12.06.2010 - Final Reno

Finally my house is completely done. After all the years planning to flatten the excessive piece of land right beside my house with concrete wall and floor, finally I got it done. Although it is a bit mess up with sands and dust, I feel better with the new environment rather than before. It took them 1 week to get the job done which cost me MYR5k. The reno was a bit frustrated as the renovator is a bit stupid and idea-less on how to get things done effectively. I need to guide them and throw them some ideas to get it done. Really unbelievable. How could an experience person asking someone that don't know about this kind of work. Anyway I am glad now that everything is done. We just finished cleaning all the mess and notice something is not right with the air-con duct. I will need to ask them to redo some minor reno to get it done perfectly. Hope it doesn't cost most!

10.06.2010 - Giving Up after 13 Years

I have being working in this company for years and with all my hard work, I was being given the opportunity to climb up after 6 years stagnant as low rank employees. I feel proud of myself for what I am now despite knowing I am not a highly educated. Holding a manager post at my age with diploma is considered fortunate. Taking into consideration of my hard work and efforts I put on through out these years, I deserved for what I am now. I am a though guy taking all the challenges myself and learning the hard way rather than easy path or shortcuts. My success is what I earned not what I asked for put bought it from. I aware that I was being monitored by those sitting 'above' me but recently I notice something weirds happening. After all the handwork and long hours I am working day and day, I was then noticed I was not being appreciated. Not to say not appreciated at all. Sitting in this position / post is an appreciation but doesn't mean that you have to squeeze me like squeezing oranges. I spend my personal time to complete my 'overload' work and taking all the job without complaining. Yes business is not good, that is why I grab those and do it myself without any complain; hoping with the increased volume I can just hire someone else to help me. But doesn't mean I am not responsible! I was accused that me and my direct boss are not working properly and spending too much time on the desk. What the fuck is that means if we being thrown several task, portfolio, project without any assistants? Every time HE goes out for meeting, he will assume we are not working because we are sitting in the office handling all orders and operation. Be honest, I really give up on this and looking forward for a change. I want them to listen and help not accusing and claiming we are not working. Although name as Manager, whatever we do, he will assume it is wrong! worst of all he always says he is correct although barely shown he is wrong! I will pray harder to have a change immediately and accept new challenges. Whether I sit here or I go out to source for better offer I will still going to go thru the tough time, why not a change than sitting the same place?

03.06.2010 - Bz Bz Bz

Life is getting more boring. I am so tired working in this company. My job and responsibility is now doubled than what I have before. I am too stressful with all the emails. I have to work from 9am to 7pm. Back home I have to continue checking my email and follow up on back logs that left behind while I was in the office. I can no longer stand all this shits.

Although business is getting better but with the competitive price offered by my top management to 1 of the giant hypermarket for Ethical Audit programme, I can just say 1 thing! Stupid! We need to complete approx. 160 factory audit within 3 months period. I cannot imagine how are we going to get it done within 3 months with 5 auditors running. Talking about the charges, we have to do approx. 3 audits to cover 1 audit what we done for other customers. Job is increased, manpower remain the same, charges is below target, is that call business? Shouldn't they think about our capability before accepting the challenges? I wish I can hire more auditors but it is not as easy as I thought off. I need to think about certifying these auditors before allowing them to run the show otherwise we will be penalized. Imagining on the auditor certification process, I rather choose other customer and drop the job. But not within my call since I am just an operation guy. Well, I am now beginning to hate that giant hypermarket. I will no longer want to step my foot on their premise after knowing how horrible and not professional the management is. Shame on them.