24.06.2012 - Blurr

Everyone says marriage is nightmare. Everyone married man I known hinted me to stay single to avoid trouble. I kind of agree at first but when time goes, I started to feel weird. I don't know why would I have that mindset that we are made to have family and to create another family after lifes. Mom and Dad gaves me a life and I should continue for the following generation. Mom was my motivator and she kepts asking me to consider getting married especially at this old age. She never forces me to get married but her hints is more than enough to tell me it is time to get this settled. I was tremendously happy to found someone who can look after my life and home. No doubt she is not perfect to me but I think to get marry someone, you need to face the reality and sacrifies. There is no perfect couple and spouse in this world.
Easy to say but in reality, damn marriage life is so sucks. It is not as normal anymore like what I can do in the past. I can't only watch any channel I want and go any where I want. Worst of all, I have to look at the damn angry face whenever things turns wrong. Sometimes I don't even know what went wrong and what makes her feels angry. When I tried to talk soft to win over her heart, she will play cool and ignores. I hate that!

17.02.2012 - The same OLD ME

I keep asking myself why I stop blogging for months. If people ask me, I would usually answered busy... I guess that will be an excuse

24.06.2012 - Am Back On My Page

I have been away from my post for almost a year. I love writing but time does not permit. With tonnes of work and fully attached (Girl Friend) it is hard to have my own sweet time to do what I want. I look at alot of aspect thinking of how to get things spice up my personal life and time but sometimes, it doesn't works as what we want. I spend most of my time with work and then back home probably late evening. Usually she will be around with me until midnight, and of course I have to send her back.

Well, 18.05.2012 was the day I tied the knob. A lot of my friends and relatives were kind of surprise that I am getting married. Me too.. I am surprised myself. I am a kind of person who love to be alone. Well, no one wants to be alone but with the years I've been through, I guess I am mature enough to take it and live with it. In fact I am so used to it and realised the beauty of being alone.

Just that mom is kind of worried over me alone here as no one will look after me; you know mom... who never threat their children adult. Worst is, she gets me a partner (I mean my GF) before she took off to Singapore looking after my sister's son. Pretty cool mom! Well I guess it is time for me to build up my own family too at this age. But getting to know someone right is very tough. The one mom intro, she is not really perfect but almost.

We fight and laugh for almost 2 years and finally decided to get it over into a family. The arrangement is a mess. Nevertheless, I got it over too just that the feel of being mad is still there sometimes. Long story if I want to throw it out. What people love to know is, we are now husband and wife. That is the best 'the end' that everyone wants to know; similarly to fairy tales. :)

So when the day comes, seriously I keep wondering if this is what I really wants. Am not sure if this is a normal feeling that everyone has before their marriage. To me it is damn scary. It is like someone is going to invade my life and my privacy. Well, it is too late to decide now. We went to the nearest marriage centre somewhere in Bukit Mertajam to get it done officially. I was expecting for a grant ceremony, unfortunately it wasn't. There are approx 20 couples getting married that time and all of the marriage was done simultaneously. Be honest I don't even know what the hell is happening since the reading vow was done in Chinese while I am totally English educated. What I can understand is, you may kiss your bride, wear rings and sign the paper. Kind of FxxK up. Well who cares!

So the night goes and both of us are officially declared married carrying the title Mr & Mrs. I am no longer single BUT married which is so tough to accept it. Nothing can change now.

19.05.2012 was our Chinese ceremony marriage day. I was asked to pick up the bride at her home and bring her back home. Mine, I have simplified it. Everyone was asking 'huh... you didn't follow'? who cares... It is me... I do the way I want not what not others. In the evening, I held a dinner of 4 tables for close relatives and close friends. I bet most of my relatives will be cursing me for not inviting them but who cares, it is my choice to call or not. It is a damn tiring moment. Seriously I don't know why I would choose to make this so complicated. life... huh..